A Cool Book

I’m feeling much better due to finals being over, and me passing all of my classes. I have officially graduated. But, that being said, that isn’t what I’m writing about today. There is so much going on inside of my head, I think in a good way? I’ve been wanting to read more, and was inspired to do so by two people. Initially, I was going to read an epic fantasy novel, but I’m once again attracted to an extremely emotional, and rather depressing story. Enter, “No Longer Human”, by Osamu Dazai.

Today, I read the introduction and prologue. To sustain a healthy state of mind, I will be reading only one chapter a day (except today, as I read the intro and prologue instead).

“His face not only lacked expression – it made no impression whatever. There was nothing distinctive about it. All I had to do was close my eyes after looking at his face, and instantly it faded from memory.”

This idea, the idea that you are so insignificant, maybe such a hollow version of who you once were, or who you wanted to be, is by far one of the most scary things to me. One of the reasons I’m trying to write and read more, as well as do more activities in general, is because I fear the idea of becoming complacent, becoming a person who has forgotten the beautiful nature of what it’s like being a child, where your mind runs so free. So free, so full of hopes and dreams, so hopeful for the future. I hope that I will make my future self proud. I’m really looking forward to reading more of this book.